Saw the new Starbucks planner. Theme for this year: Wood (brown cover), Metal (silver), Velvet (red felt cover). I like the “windows” design (square holes on the cover through which one can see different pictures contained on the next page). Hmm… I’m aiming for either the metal or velvet planner. Hopefully, my sister and K can collect ‘em all and give me another one (last year, they managed to collect 6).

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I haven’t written in quite a while. There’s this “Xmas” contest in our office, wherein we humble employees can submit individual essays (500 words max) about how good and just this branch of the government is. I wanted to join the contest at first; however, judging from the so little compliments I can dish out, I’d better not if I were to keep my job (which I actually love as it enables me to help without being in the limelight).

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Speaking of limelight… I never got over the issue I had with a group I was formerly affiliated with. Most probably because I still encounter one of the members in another group I’m currently ummm… interested in. Well, I’m not sure if that former group’s members were the problem or maybe it was just me.

You see, I love and hate politics at the same time. Much as I love and hate being a leader and having responsibility and committing, in general. I like helping, but I do not like people abusing my generosity. I most especially do not like being used – something which “politicians” are wont to resort to.

I just really want to enjoy and learn whatever I can about the mysteries of life and spirits and different dimensions which books cannot offer. Yes, my nature, if I let it reign free, will veer towards gaining power. But that’s what rationality and choice are for. Some people may think I were born to rule, but I choose not to. I choose a simple life – free from guilt, free from censure – free.

Alas.